Where is my golden teeth

I found myself seating in one corner sober, tired and sweating profusely. I'm so done for. I just can't make anything tangible out of my scattered and unpleasant life.... those were the words I kept telling myself.

I got tried of going about doing the same thing with no result to show for it, gone for too many interviews for which I know I'm more than qualified for, still no job and no means to an end.

I've always hoped for a little bit of stability in my life even if it's just in one thing.the family which should have been the foundation of my stability in life, was never strong. My family on it's own is another headache on it's own you could probably imagine what I went through. 

Mum lived her reckless life drinking alcohol as she knows how to do best and dad you'd never know the difference between when he's at home and when he's not, always out of the house earlier than anyone because of work, comes late everyday after having nice time with his concubines outside, so everything was just up side down, and at some point all my dreams are aspirations just seem to be a mirage, and mere illusion that can never be achieved,but then I was determined to get more from life.

Seating down in my frustration, and the sweet bitter thought of suicide kept flashing through my mind, I never believed I'd even ever consider committing suicide, I could remember clearly, as the picture looks fresh in my mind just like the fresh milk of a diary cattle. Way back in my college days "I'd always say to my friends no matter what guy I can never think of committing suicide" and here am I considering it as my last best option 

just then I saw a piece of paper on the floor with the words of Albert enstine "only a mad man does the same thing, the same way over and over again and yet expects a different result". Then it occurred to me, I've always done all I've been doing the same way and I've been expecting a different result, which obviously would never come, then I gathered myself, stood up and decided to give life one more chance..

"The little you know, the shallow your mind but the more you know the broader your horizon"

I changed my approach to life entirely, changed my mindset, and here am I just 3months after, standing like I'd never tasted frustration, having a better life, a good job beyond what I could have ever imagined, so it was there all along, i just didn't dig deep.... then I said to my "everything you want to achieve you can always achieve, you just have to check wether you are taking the right approach or not"

My golden tooth was never missing it was there all along.